*(Really quick- before I get into the latest goings on- I just want to sort of set the story straight about being “spiritually stabbed” from my last post. I’ve since heard that story gave a few people the heebie-jeebies and seemed a little frightening. In hindsight, I probably told the story a little too casually. So to clarify, I never felt like I was actually being stabbed. The pain in my back was not bad at all, it was just that spirit’s way of letting me know what had happened to him, and certainly wasn’t malicious or evil or scary in any way. To be clear- I have never encountered anything/anyone from the spirit realm that felt even remotely bad, evil, or up to no good. So far, anyway.)
Alright then- Remember the “Mystical Charms” psychic lady from the store down the road from me? Well, I recently found myself painting her living room. Full on cutting-in, rollers, ladders… the whole deal. For about three straight hours, in between discussing what part of the wall we may have missed, the lovely Leslie answered every question I could think of about being a psychic medium.
But wait- How did I end up there???? Good question. Thanks for asking. 🙂 Ha!
Last time I blogged- I wrote about having gone into Leslie’s shop looking for- a mentor, really. She talked to me for a few minutes- but then basically said she didn’t have time to be a teacher, but that there was spiritual church down the road I should try. Well… I finally went to that- and I told you I’d tell you about it. You ready for a chuckle?
I showed up at the White Eagle church a few days later in the middle of a weekday afternoon. I ended up speaking to two lovely older women who seemed interested in what I had to say and why I was there, but not outwardly surprised. They said I needed to talk to the pastor, Jane, but she was unavailable at that moment. It would be better, they said, if I came back to one of their weekday meditations, and Jane could speak to me afterward.
Now just so we are clear, I had been pinning a lot of hopes on this church. I was crossing every finger that I had found “my people.” I WANTED this to be my answer. So a few days later I show up around 8:15am, and I am the only vehicle in front of the building. I get out of my car – and what do I hear cutting through the silence of the rural morning? HOWLING WOLVES. Not one. Not three. Probably not even five. This was MANY MULTIPLE AT LEAST FIVE WOLVES. HOWLING. (Turns out the founder of the church was also an activist- so the church grounds bordered a wolf sanctuary.)
I proceed to walk into the temple, which is a perfectly round domed room. As such, the acoustics are… LEGIT. You can hear everything; A sniffle, a snaffle, a shoe shuffle. (What is a snaffle? I don’t know, but you’d hear it.) One of the women I had met initially a few days before was sitting in the circle of chairs, eyes closed and already deep in thought- wearing a flowing white robe. She whispered her greetings to me and then politely told me to scoot over, cause that’s where Jane sits. WHOOPS. I looked around the room for a few minutes nervously while Lady1 would inject a few whispers of explanation of what I was seeing every so often. Finally, the others showed. And when I say “others,” I mean two other people. One being the OTHER lady I met a few days ago, and Jane. All wearing robes.
I tried to shake the Davinci Code vibes and focus on why I was there; To learn how to meditate, and to possibly meet someone who could just tell me what the heck to do. (I also then noticed that I was the only one who hadn’t removed my shoes. Uh Oh. WHOOPSIE again.)
The mediation starts with Lady 1 reading an opening prayer. I couldn’t tell you much of what she was saying- but it was nice, I’m sure. Lady 1 then starts the mediation. I don’t know what I expected, but it probably wasn’t this. In our meditation we were led to imagine ourselves walking through beautiful fields to the top of a mountain where we met some very important saints- and then… made our way back down the mountain. Yes, that’s the overly simplified version. But still, there was no mention of spirit guides, mediumship, or Spirit in the way I was looking for.
When we got down to the bottom of the mountain- there were no further instructions. No- “thank you, we are done.” No, “see you next week.” No, “how did that make you feel?” So, I sat there, with my eyes closed, assuming this was now the time for some self reflection and personal mediation.
This is where I should remind you of the acoustics of the room. You can hear anything right? Well, maybe not so much. Because after a few minutes of sitting in silence and trying to meditate but at the same time wondering what the heck I’m supposed to be doing next, I do a quick pirate eye to slyly check the room.
AHOY! Gone. They’re all gone. I’m alone.
My stomach drops and all of a sudden I’m really hoping Tom Hanks/Robert Langdon runs into the room and saves me. I actually had to hide my head and let out a “what the F^&*?” chuckle. Right about then I heard a small noise behind the door and caught them peering in at me. I realized they were wondering what the heck I was doing! Oh my. I quickly met up with everyone (all three! Big crowd!) in the hallway. I thanked them all and lady 1 mentioned that they would love to see me back and maybe someday I’d wear the robes, too (if I wanted, of course.)
I asked Jane if I could speak to her further while she walked to her office, and we started to talk about what her church does, and what I am looking for. I must say- as much as I have made a little fun of the whole experience- these were lovely women. Jane just glows with kindness- and I really really wish it could have been my landing spot. I would have taken the robes if it meant I had a clear path. But it was not to be- Jane explained that while they absolutely believe in all the things I was telling her- that their church did not encourage mediumship. She explained that the only time they allow themselves messages from “beyond” is during their meditation. Other than that – the protective curtain is drawn, so to speak.
I felt like I was back at square one. I can’t help grieving people like that, can I? So this church isn’t a fit- Leslie doesn’t have time for mentorship… Oh but wait! I forgot- I could just go pay for a reading from Leslie, right? And I’ll just use that time to get more info from her!
So off I go- back to Mystical Charms. “Hi! I’d like to set up a reading with Leslie.”
“Ohhh. We aren’t setting up any appointments until after the 10th,” her husband tells me. (He runs the store while she does the readings) “We have a rental property we have do a lot of work in. Leslie is going to be painting it before the new tenants move in.”
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Then, LIGHT BULB. “I can paint.”
“I can paint! I will go over there and help her paint if she will just talk to me while I’m doing it! Here- I’ll give you my phone number.”
“Uhhh- ok. I’ll give her the message.”
The next afternoon, I got the call. She gave me her address and two days later- there I was- helping Leslie paint.
I took it all in. 3 hours seemed like 30 minutes. She reiterated the need for meditation. She taught me what to say to “protect” myself. She even told me what I need to say to my spirit guides, because lately, I haven’t been hearing them.
“Meditate and ask your guides to show you what the next step is.” Alright, will do.
“Make sure you are listening to what Spirit and your Guides saying because if they are trying to talk to you and you keep on not listening, they may just stop trying.” Oh no! Ok! Listening!
“You can’t let EGO get in the way. It’s not about YOU. Ask them for forgiveness if you’ve been putting yourself first.” Have I? Man, I’ve tried not to. But maybe..? To be sure, you can bet I’m gonna ask for forgiveness.
We went over many things- mostly small little detailed questions- mediums on TV, how different spirits communicate, how spiritualism is a much more accepted thing in Scotland so they can freely talk about it there, and children aren’t taught to suppress their gifts (as much as here, anyway.) One of the more interesting tid-bits for me was when she talked about manipulating energy. (The medium in Houston talked about this too.) Basically, the simplified version is that you can both put ideas in people heads and also sort of make things happen. She gave me an excercise to do: light a candle and view it through the reflection of a mirror. Concentrate on the various changing colors of the flame, and then mentally try to view the flame as all one color. It may take a few tries, but it supposedly teaches you how to start to manipulate energy. (Yes, I know this is a jump. Just go with me on this one. I’ll let you know when I master it. 🙂
I also asked her about those who are on the other side who had committed suicide. Did she find that there was a period of time where they couldn’t really communicate with her? I started giving her the example of a woman I had spoke with who’s daughter had died. The mother was unsure if her daughter had taken her own life or if the daughters death was actually at the hands the boyfriend. (In this instance- I had a very hard time getting any messages from this particular spirit. She had gotten my attention enough that I set up a meeting with her mother- but I never actually heard or saw her. She just basically made me “feel” things.) As I’m telling Leslie this, Leslie stops me with a question and an inquisitive look on her face- “was this recent?”
“No. The boyfriend didn’t do it. He could have stopped her, but he didn’t.”
I about jumped out of my skin- “that’s exactly what I told her!” I was all at once again sad for this mother’s loss, in awe of what I was watching Leslie do, and reassured that what I had told the mother had been correct. (I have thought about posting that particular story, but it was such an anomaly for me that I was kind of unsure about the whole thing- it was all based on how the daughter’s spirit made me feel- nothing evidential- and I had left it with the mother that we could try again down the line.)
As we were finishing up, Leslie admitted to me that she gets a lot of requests for guidance. That I’d be surprised at how many people walk into her store that have had experiences and don’t know what do about it. She also told me that normally, she would have never taken me up on my offer, but that “something” told her to call me. She thanked me more than once for actually doing the work (and not just talking while she painted) and told me she owed me “hours” of mentoring! YAHOO!
As for today? I will ask my guides to forgive my ego, ask them to show me the next step, and make damn sure I’m listening to them from now on. But, I’m wondering if I don’t have this manipulating energy thing down a little bit already… I mean- I did get Leslie to teach me, right? And I think I may have found my “person.”